Politics and Religion. Politics is over, so that leaves religion, and it came up yesterday when I was talking to Gordon. I'm very hesitant to talk about religion, because I'm not sure what I believe in, if anything at all. I'm afraid people who are really into their religions will think less of me if I even try to explain myself. And thats the thing, I don't know how to explain it. I was raised Catholic, and I'm not going to say I don't believe in it's teachings, but I'm very indecisive, science has gotten the best of me. I don't think that I should be going to Church wasting pew space if I'm not going to pay attention. It's not that I dread going to church, I just don't think it will do anything for me. Sure it builds character, brings a person closer to personal happiness or whatever. Spritual stuff really isn't for me. Don't get me wrong, if you want me to go to church with you, I'm willing. I'm not against religion, I'm not athiest, I just don't have an affiliaton or specific belief. I don't even know if I believe in God (leaning towards no). I got in a fight with my Mom about it over the weekend, and its the thing I hate most to get into fights about. I'm 18 now, I can choose my "path of religion", and at this point in my life, it doesn't include going to church. It's just really eating at me on the inside because, like I said, I feel like people are going to judge me. Please don't....
On a happier note, there was a "Study Abroad" fair today. I'm really thinking about doing it junior year. Everyone who's done it absolutely loved it. The only thing is the part about being so far away for such a long time. Leaving family, friends, loved ones in general, its hard. But I'd really like to do it. I'd like to go to a Spanish speaking country, or Italy. Italy would be lovely, and with one of the programs you don't have to know how to speak Italian! Spanish is fun too.....I'm thinking about minoring in it. Hey, why not?
Venice, Italy
Granda, Spain
It's cold here. My hands were the coldest they've ever been today at band. I'm not the warmest. I want my human space heater. House is on tonight! I'm excited.
I want an I Love Lucy poster.
I felt used last night. I'm still not over it, but I shouldn't let it be affecting me like this. I need trust.
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