I'm too emo to think up a good title

Well, tomorrow, rather today, is Christmas Eve. I'm excited that my family gets to come over, but I'm completely and utterly annoyed with my immediate family. They keep fighting (mostly it's Alyse) and it really wears me down. I hate the fighting, and I always have to just listen to it. I like to try to resolve it, but no one listens to me. I just feel like getting in the car and driving for hours, but of course I'd get yelled at for that. I'm also the only one that does housework while my parents are at work, but whatever. It's getting old, and I just want to go back to Wooster where there is NO fighting at all.

I've talked to Gordon pretty much every day since I've been home. He called me on our anniversary (2 months!), and he liked my present :) It just sucks that he's three time zones back, because I have to stay up late to be able to talk to him. It gets wearisome, but it's worth it in the end. I miss him so much and really just need the hug of a lifetime right now with all thats going on.

My computer keeps jumping sentences, I don't get it. It will jump back to the sentence before it and just start typing what I was typing there. It's really odd, and annoying as hell.

From the looks of it, I'm not gonna have a white Christmas, and that really brings me down. So I guess my break is going to be as depressing as it will get. I know I'll be able to see most of my friends, but there are others that I won't see. Andrew keeps calling me tonight, because he's drunk and he wants me to drive him to the gas station. Yah, no thanks buddy...

I'm pretty emo right now and I need a smile like no other. I just want everything to be nice and smooth for the rest of my break. That's really all I want. I'm sick of the boredom, and the fighting. I want to go back.

Three time zones away seems like forever...

I'm home for a month! Ahhhh!!! It's going to be the longest month of my life. I sit at home, while everyone else is at school or work, no car, nothing to do. So I lay around, and do NOTHING! And the worst thing, Gordon is three time zones away. I've talked to him pretty much every day, either on Facebook or on the phone, and he flatters me more than ever. I just miss him like crazy. I sent him a Christmas present though, and he's gonna love it! I'm excited lol.


I miss him :(


I went to stage crew on Monday night, they would have been lost without me and Katie, that's all I have to say.

So, my sister's birthday party was last Saturday. All of my cousins were there, along with Katie, Sarah, and one of Carmen's friends. Kelley and Carrie were supposed to sleep over, but Carrie decided she didn't want to. Now, my mom said Carrie's mom called and is worried about the fact that Carrie didn't sleep over, like were we offended. She said that Carrie says that Me, Alyse, and Kelley are mean to her. I know for sure that Kelley is, but me and Alyse have never been mean to Carrie. We hate when the two of them fight, so much. But anyway, I guess Carrie, Domenic, and Carmen have created a little thing against me, Alyse, and Kelley. I have no idea when this all came about. I wish we could all just go back to how we were. Close and no fighting, yah there was fighting, but we were kids. This shouldn't be like this. We're all growing up, we shouldn't be immature about this. It's really taking a toll on me, because I was so proud of how close we all were. I can't take this...I really can't....

I have a movie to pick up at the library. It's a classic comedy called "The Lady Eve". It'll give me something to do on these days home alone. I'm excited


I need to finish Christmas shopping....gah!

I don't have emo bangs

Well, my finals are over and I'm going home tomorrow night. I'm gonna miss Wooster and my friends, but I'm excited to see my friends and my cousins. I think I'm just gonna spend tonight with Gordon, maybe watch a movie, cuddle, cute stuff. This break is gonna be too long. I know I'm gonna miss him like crazy, and I'm gonna complain about it in my blog, but I need to get over it. Those are the downs of a long-distance college relationship, but I'm pretty sure we'll make it through a month lol. Anywho, I know no one likes reading about relationships. My last final was today (psychology). My professor gave us M&M's to help us do better. I think it worked?? My spanish professor gave us gum yesterday to help us do better, didn't work as well. But those were my two finals, I studied all day for both of them in Old Main Cafe (loved it) and Kauke (didn't quite love it). And then I walked to go get Chinese food (paid $20 for sucky food, probably not gonna get paid back). Wow, my english is doing horribly tonight. That really sucks because I have two papers to finish off tonight and tomorrow.

I really felt like singing out loud in Kauke today, but I couldn't since there were people studying. I'm tired, but I don't feel like sleeping, I think...

I never realized how hard it is to write an opinion paper on marriage. It really is no fun, but it got me back into a lovely play "The Importance of Being Earnest". I want to read it again. It's pretty hilarious. Oh, and the poster company for my LiveLavaLive didn't charge me three times, they dropped the other two, so it's all good :) My dry erase board is still annoying the crap outta me. I took it off the wall to put duct tape on the back, and a chunk of wall ripped out with it! It's dinky adhesive stuff, but it still ripped wall off. Grr, now I'll have to pay for it.

I have so much to write about, but I don't feel like putting it in here, since I never know who reads this. I'll write more later.

Katie- 1 Motivation-0

I have four papers due next Thursday. My motivation is absolute zero, though I did get one finished (it sucks but oh well). Finals week is coming up, I need to study like hell for my Spanish and Psychology exams. I realized I haven't blogged in too long, so I decided to do something more productive with my time :)

I had Thanksgiving break a week ago. It wasn't too bad, but I couldn't wait to get back to Wooster. It was funny because Gordon didn't get a shuttle ticket to the airport, so he got to go hang out with my Papa at my house so my dad could take him to the airport. I got a good laugh out of it. So what did I do over my break? Absolutely nothing. I went to the dentist. I went to my Uncles house for Thanksgiving, where I watched "I Love Lucy" of course, and then "Home Alone". Then, on Friday, I went to a cabin with my cousins, which was pretty cool. Not gonna complain.


But Sunday couldn't come any faster. We picked up Gordon and Paul at the airport, and Gordon couldn't stop hugging me. I was so smitten at that moment in time :) Anywho....we got back and watched Tomb Raider 2. Everyone left and I suddenly got nauseas and faint. Not cool. But yah.

I'm listening to more oldies tonight, but I also made a Christmas song playlist. I'm pumped to make puppy chow this weekend :) And Gordon is teaching Lindy Hop at swing this Friday. I really can't think of what else went on. If I remember, I'll be sure to let you know.

My dry erase board looks like it's about to fall off of my wall...it's annoying the bajeezus out of me. Oh! I ordered a LiveLavaLive poster online (they charged me three times! I need to fix it) I'm so excited :)

Hepcat Revivals...Best Friends or Rivals

So Friday was Gordon and my one month anniversary (yee!) and Thursday night he surprised me with Tickets to the midnight showing of Twilight (it was ok). Now, mind you, Katie and I were going to go see it together. I knew she'd get mad at me if I told her I was going with Gordon, so I figured I'd keep it to myself. Well, she found out anyway from a friend of ours who was also there. She called me and got quite mad. She didn't talk to me for a whole day, and it was the most depressing day of my life. I realized how much we need each other and that no matter what I need to always tell her the truth. I love her very much and never want to be in that situation ever again. Other than that, I'm very happy with Gordon and hope to celebrate many more anniversaries <3

Last night was a Hepcat Revival Swing Dance at Baldwin-Wallace University. It was AWESOME!!! There were so many fun people there and I absolutely loved it. I really feel like I'm getting better at it. I love it. I also got the jist of how to do Lindy Hop. I'm excited to practice it more. Now I need to figure out how to do this one thing Gordon likes to do that I can't. Haha. Near the end, there was an uuuuber slow dance and Gordon danced with me and I loved it :) There was this latin guy there who only did Lindy (why he was at east coast swing was beyond me) and he was totally cocky and I'm so glad I didn't get the chance to dance with him. Gordon dubbed him Antonia Iglesias. The main swing dance guy from B-Dubs' name was Nick, and he was completely hilarious. He's the one who taught us to Lindy, and he had so much energy and made the best faces ever. He was great. I love Swing Dance, and I love Lucy. I kind of feel like I was born in the wrong era...Film noir, swing dance, and black and white tv are for me!


I moved my part of the room around, I now have a tv nook under my bed. I absolutely love it. The classes that I'm officially signed up for are Spanish 102, The visual text, Logic and Philosophy, and Language Disorders in children. Now, I'm trying to get into Language Development in children, but I don't know if that will happen. If it doesn't, my classes will go from 9-11:50 on Monday Wednesday Friday, and 2:30-3:50 on Tuesday and Thursday. With this schedule I'll be able to keep my job schedule as well. The stupid professor won't e-mail me back about Language development, and thats the class I REALLY need for my intended major. Geez.

I need to go write an outline for my presentation in FYS. It's called "Early 20th century women, As seen in Titanic". I'm pumped. Plus I'm gonna watch Titanic today with Gordon, Katie, and Ben. Yay!

Peace out girl scout <3

There are three forks...what the hell?

So this weekend was our last game of the season. It was freezing, raining, and muddy. Miserable, yet fun :) We only had to wear our uniforms from the waist down, along with raincoats, which was cool. We beat Wittenburg, the asshole team from somewhere ("If you can't go to Wooster go to Witt *clap clap*"). It was AWESOME! Tonight was the band banquet. Gordon and I matched :) lol We're cute. Anyway, there were quite some hilarities at this banquet, and I couldn't explain because they're the "you had to be there" type of hilarities. But the event was all formal like, we dressed up, we had three forks, we ate with our napkins on our laps. My mother would be so proud.

Lately I've been feeling down in the dumps, I'm not sure why. Maybe it's because we're learning about depression in psych, or perhaps since I've just uploaded Evanescence music to my computer. But every little thing gets me fretting, or depressed, it's so not me. Like, I'll see one situation, and I'll think worse of it, I'll assume, and doubt things. My friends kind of help me with it. Kaitlynn keeps me in line, most of the time. Katie settled me down a bit today too. I just feel like I'm not up to par with what people want/expect from me. I haven't always been quite the people pleaser, but I can sure try.

I think there was something else I was going to write about, like something that went on this weekend. The awesome rave I was so excited about was shut down by dumb security. Then it started back up again but I was already do gone. I was quite unhappy. There's probably more. I just can't think of it right now. I'll write more later. For now it's off to Gordons for some mid-movie entrance.

Two things you should never bring up in conversation...

Politics and Religion. Politics is over, so that leaves religion, and it came up yesterday when I was talking to Gordon. I'm very hesitant to talk about religion, because I'm not sure what I believe in, if anything at all. I'm afraid people who are really into their religions will think less of me if I even try to explain myself. And thats the thing, I don't know how to explain it. I was raised Catholic, and I'm not going to say I don't believe in it's teachings, but I'm very indecisive, science has gotten the best of me. I don't think that I should be going to Church wasting pew space if I'm not going to pay attention. It's not that I dread going to church, I just don't think it will do anything for me. Sure it builds character, brings a person closer to personal happiness or whatever. Spritual stuff really isn't for me. Don't get me wrong, if you want me to go to church with you, I'm willing. I'm not against religion, I'm not athiest, I just don't have an affiliaton or specific belief. I don't even know if I believe in God (leaning towards no). I got in a fight with my Mom about it over the weekend, and its the thing I hate most to get into fights about. I'm 18 now, I can choose my "path of religion", and at this point in my life, it doesn't include going to church. It's just really eating at me on the inside because, like I said, I feel like people are going to judge me. Please don't....



On a happier note, there was a "Study Abroad" fair today. I'm really thinking about doing it junior year. Everyone who's done it absolutely loved it. The only thing is the part about being so far away for such a long time. Leaving family, friends, loved ones in general, its hard. But I'd really like to do it. I'd like to go to a Spanish speaking country, or Italy. Italy would be lovely, and with one of the programs you don't have to know how to speak Italian! Spanish is fun too.....I'm thinking about minoring in it. Hey, why not?

Venice, Italy


Granda, Spain

It's cold here. My hands were the coldest they've ever been today at band. I'm not the warmest. I want my human space heater. House is on tonight! I'm excited.

I want an I Love Lucy poster.

I felt used last night. I'm still not over it, but I shouldn't let it be affecting me like this. I need trust.