Mirror, Mirror on the Wall

I've been really caught up in thinking about the future, so I thought I'd write it all down.

First, I've been thinking about marriage a lot. I know I shouldn't be, I'm only 18, but what girl doesn't think about it? I mean I'd like to get married young, maybe almost right out of college. I know of some people who are already engaged, mind you they're seniors, but still. I love watching shows like "Say yes to the dress" and thinking about going to Kleinfeld Bridal in New York and trying on my dream dress. And oh, looking at rings in jewelery shops just gets my imagination flowing.I don't think being in love is helping me to not think about marriage either lol. I also don't want to scare a certain someone off with my idea of marriage. It's not like I'm proposing or anything, just daydreaming. Secondly, my Dad probably wouldn't be the happiest of people if I wanted to get married right out of college. He says I should get a good job first, and not move anywhere. He wants me to stay in Ohio, which I'm not complaining about, but what if....



There's also the kids thing. I want to have 3 or 4, so I'd have to get kickin! Haha. Baby names are always fun to think about too. Jack, and Lucy, amongst others, are my favorites. This blog would freak my parents out if they saw it. Haha.

Along with marriage comes a house. I know a lot of people who have just bought their first house, and it's so exciting! I was just looking at all of the flowers outside today and was thinking "I'm going to have so many pretty flowers outside of my house". My house will be completely amazing. I think Katie wanted to live with me right out of college. I'm up for that, as long as I'm not married lol. Oh geez.




Then there's the job. I would love to be an SLP (Speech Language Pathologist) at Rainbow Babies and Children's Hospital at University Hospital. I'm going to try to make my in during the summer and so on with maybe a desk job and some clinical observations. That's my dream hospital. But who knows where I'll be living.



I think the last thing I've been thinking about is death (not like suicide). The past couple of nights it's popped into my head, and has hindered my sleeping. I mean, death is probably the thing I am most afraid of. Anytime I really start thinking about it I get knots in my stomach and I just hate it. I'm afraid of the uncertainty of where my soul will go, what the point of my life is anyway, what it will be like. I'm not afraid of it happening quickly, and when I'm young. I'm afraid of getting old (which I don't want to happen, I want to stay young forever), and knowing it's coming and not being able to do anything about it. Everyone around me crying, holding my hand. It sucks to think about it, and I hate it when it comes up in my mind.

I think my future is bright. Only money problems might hinder me, I hope not....ok, I want it to stop raining now.

Don't fall asleep in the sun...

Well, right now I'm supposed to be writing a paper about intervention for a little boy named Payton. But I dont' really feel like it, sooooo.....Blog!

It's been a little while. But I guess I'll start with the fact that I'm pretty sure everything with Katie is completely bandaged up and healed. I'm very happy, and I can't wait for next year! Oh yeah. We got into Babcock. At first we didn't cuz Sangeeta sucks and lost our applications, but we kicked and screamed and were "first on the waiting list" and got right in after room draw. Luckily there was a triple left, and we are now the proud owners :) It's gonna be amazing.

I'm really really liking my CSD classes and can't wait for next semester classes. I'm doing clinic observation hours at University Hospital this summer to get them over with, so I don't have to do them during the school year. Hopefully the lady will e-mail me back soon, otherwise I'll have to call her.

I don't want to leave Wooster. Half of it is that I don't want to pack up all my crap. The other half is that I don't want to leave all of my friends and Gordon. Yeah, some of them I'll be able to see over the summer, but ugh! I'm gonna super sad. And that leads to about 3 months away from Gordon. I've done one month, and I survived it. But I think I'm growing much fonder of him lol. Over the past four weeks, either of us has been gone for a weekend. And this weekend was the worst. I don't know why, but it feels like I haven't seen him in forever and the longing is just killing me. I can't believe myself. At least I get to see him in a few hours. I'm just hoping for the best during the summer. Skype will probably become my best friend. Oh yeah, 6 months on Tuesday <3

Arielle came home with me for Easter, it was pretty awesome :)

This weekend was beautiful. I finally got to wear my new shorts. I love showing of my long legs in my short shorts :) It was great. Arielle and I decided to nap outside on Friday and we both got sunburned. I have a nifty sunburn line on my legs because I was sleeping on my side. It's pretty funny acutally. Alyse came over for the weekend on Friday too. We watched a movie and played a game, and then she got sick (in my bed...ew) then she went home. I was kinda sad cuz I wanted her to experience college life with me. Oh well, there's always next year. A bunch of us went to the Ethnicity Fair at the Wooster Fairgrounds. It was fun, and I got a Canada temporary tattoo. I also spent $11 on fries, lemonade, and cotton candy. Awesome!

I'm so glad baseball season has started. I love the Tribe!

Oh, and AWESOME RAVE LAST NIGHT!!! I danced on a chair. It was AWESOME!

I live for hyper funness

So, last night was our ILP semi-formal. It was pretty awesome. Arielle, Katie, and I did the decoration shopping, and also the decoratING minus Katie. We built an Eiffel Tower out of aluminum foil. It was pretty amazing, not gonna lie. There was nutella, pretty good music, and lots of supa-fun. Not to mention Spiderman was climbing the Eiffel Tower lol.




Also, last week was a trip to the Bohemian with out BW friends again. Gordon was in California, so I went alone. I danced so many times. It was so great!!! And even if Gordon wasn't there, I found a 6'5 dancing partner anyway ;) Old guys danced with us, one liked the smell of my gum? And I had a really sexy blues dance to heartbreak hotel with Nick from BW. It was AWESOME.

So things between me and Katie have patched up. I'm thinking they're almost completely healed. It's great. I'm really happy, and I hope she is too. Gordon and I are just trying to hook up Katie and Ben though....lol we'll see how that goes ;)

Um, Oh! I'm now officially a Communication Sciences and Disorders major! Aka CSD. I also love Wugs! They're a part of a test to see the grammatic production of children, or something like that lol. But they're so cute! I'm gonna get a Wug shirt!




I ordered a pair of cat eye sunglasses, like the stars in the 50's wore. I'm so excited.

I had to paint a superhero for Visual Text, her name is Lucille Viven and she's a super swinger.

Flowerama called me yesterday to try to get an interview in. I told them I won't be home till May. They said they'd call me back. I don't think I'm going to get a call.

I'm going to the Indian's Home Opener this Friday. I'm super excited!

So at Breakfast the other day, I was talking about something CSD, and how babies have sucking pads and their tonguse are forward for optimal feeding. And then I explained how the sucking pads eventually go away, and the tongue moves back so they can start talking. Later I must have said something rude to Joe or something, because he comes back with "I hope your children's tongues never move back". Hahaha

There's probably more, but per usual, I can't remember. Arielle is pretty hyper. We made her get coffee. Not the smartest move, but it's funny :)


Trayless weekend in the cafeteria! It's not too bad.

I'm out girl scout!